dor de tine..

mi-e dor de tine.. te caut neincetat in noptile de odinioara ce dispar cu trecerea zilelor .. te caut in ploile din noptile tarzii cand tot ce era, o nesfarsita eternitate de placere.. te caut in amurgul diminetilor cand raza soarelui si mana mea iti mangaiau pielea catifelata.. te caut in dorintele implinte ce acum sunt in asteptare.. te caut in dupa-amiezile insorite langa geamul manjit de stropi, cu fumurile de tigara ce se imbinau cand privirile nu incetau in a se uimi de atingerea buzelor neincetate. Te caut in visele ce nu demult erau o reala minunatie a constientului, ramas-au amintirile din noapte a subconstientului. Te caut in sufletu-mi trist cu dorul de tine...si-n ziua in care te voi avea iar langa mine.

dream in colors

it was late at night. i still can't remember the time when i went to bed, but it was for sure after 12 midnight. i remember watching a movie before i went to sleep. i don't remember the name, but it was only a scene that captured my attention; a scene about a couple kissing at one point in the heavy summer rain outside. after that i can't remember much cause I fall asleep. I usually don't dream much, but that night probably my mind, played with the images, and made me dream a thing or two. in my dream i was in a train station waiting. at one point an yellow train was coming slowly, and the sound of it was making me scream. i got into the train, that was probably taking me nowhere, and when i lifted my head up i sow a face. the most beautiful face i have ever seen. It was a girl that looked like an angel. i tried to come closer, i tried to touch her hand, it seemed unreal in her beauty. but every time i tried to come closer she was going away, running from me. then the train stopped. the beautiful angel went out and i went to fallow her. then she stopped from running and turn her face to me. i tried to smile, thinking that maybe I will get a smile back. but she didn't. she started crying and then disappeared leavening me on a green hill with nothing else but just the sky. and then it started to rain. a heavy summer rain like in the scene movie. i woke up the next morning, a beautiful sunny summer morning, trying to figure it out what it was all about in my dream. but i didn't find any logical explanation. i went outside on my balcony to take a sip of fresh air, and come to the reality of life. and then it started raining, a warm rain like in my dream. and it felt good to feel the rain. an unexplainable relaxed feeling of the rain coming down on my face, hiding the noise on the street and hiding my tears that were starting.

rain..

Imi place ploaia. Imi place sentimentul de ploaie, exista un asemenea sentiment. Imi place sa ies pe strada cand ploua si sa-i vad pe toti cum fug, cum se feresc de ceva atat de placut si umed. Imi place sa-i vad pe toti sub protectia a umbrelelor lor, in timp ce eu sunt libera sub miile de picaturi ale ploii. Imi place sa-mi intind bratele si sa ma las prinsa de umezeala, sa ma las cuprinsa de raceala picurilor ce imi mangaie fata. Imi place jocul ploii vazut seara in lumina oarba a stalpilor de pe strazi. Imi place sunetul apei.. Imi place ca ploaia ma baga in seama si-mi bate in geam de cate ori vine. Imi place ca ploaia imi ascunde lacrimile. Imi place ca sunetul ploii ascunde galagia ce-mi ataca timpanele.Imi place ploaia si ea ma place pe mine. Imi place sentimentul de ploaie si ... credeti-ma ca exista un asemenea sentiment. E un sentiment atat de profund, de pur si de atotcuprinzator incat eu, o nebuna a unui mare oras, il simt.

pt tine..

all seems an empty space, and feel i want to scream so the Universe can hear my voice and my desire.. i dedicate this song to you, because i feel you deserve it. you deserve more than you can imagine..because your love means every thing.. and even though sometimes i fee i am shallow and crazy and sometimes a bitch and other days a mean kid who doesn't want to listen just because she wants her way, i now that deep down your love means every thing as my love means every thing. ps: i can't upload the video..so follow this link cause its dedicated to you :X http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpkU0RvgHnk

vocea ta..

astazi mi-e dor de tine mai mult ca oricand..minutele, orele, zilele petrecute departe de tine incep sa se adune ca o gaura neagra in jurul meu facandu-ma sa tip din toate puterile incat sa ma auzi... o ora jumate de pauza la facultate care pare interminabila, desi mai sunt doar 15 minute, frazele lui Robert despre cat de aiurea e la locul lui de munca, spuse cu o engleza stalcita si enervanta de ascultat, atunci cand gangurile sunt in alta parte decat la ceea ce el spunea.. un nor de ameteala plin de voci galagioase in care caut surdina, se invarte in jurul meu, si singura voce pe care vreau sa o aud, dintre toate vocile auzite in camera asta plina de calculatoare si afise cu "silance", e vocea ta. vocea care imi da cea mai uimitoare stare de liniste, de comfort, de protectie si dorinta neincetata de a o asculta incontinuu... dar pana diseara cand iti voi auzi vocea, va mai trece ceva timp.. si nici vocile din acest nor transparent nu vor disparea curand, eu inca cautand oaza de surdina ce pare ca nu o gasesc..

sambata 16 ianuarie...

saptamana trecuta a fost zia mea..am implinit 23 ani..nu am sarbatorit cine stie ce, ci impreuna cu familia, departe fiind de prieteni si de iubita mea. am primit urari de la cei dragi si mici cadouri de la cei apropiati de aici. insa am fost un pic trista, dat fiind faptului, mentionat mai sus, departarea de prieteni si de iubita. astfel mi-am spus ca acea zi de 16 ianuarie va fi ultima zi de nastere petrecuta departe de cei mai dragi mie, asa incat anul viitor voi incerca sa am o petrecere de zile mari..;))

asta e pentru ea..

Te-am cautat prin multe locuri azi;prin parfumul imprimat in hainele de atunci,prin versuri fara rima si fara de idei,prin fulgii reci si umezi ce acopera pamantul si prin nebunia gandului ce nu vrea sa dispara....nu te-am gasit..privesc in continuare prin geamul deschis intunericul.incep sa-ti conturez chipul din fiecare stea ce o zaresc acolo..te vad destul de clar!esti tu,lumina ce apare rar..ascunsa bine-n alte lumi,acoperita de nori de fum..miroasea sticla a mister,dar sticla asta prea opaca cu greu lasa lumina sa treaca.si ma uit iar inspre apus, zarindu-ti chipul intre nori ascuns..